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Week 32: What memories is the Solar Eclipse this Wednesday revealing for you?

Beautiful Magicians,

This is a big week. BIG. On Wednesday, August 12, there will be a new moon Solar Eclipse in Leo at 20° 1’. At first, that may sound like nothing more than a fact. A data point. A date and a zodiac position.

But, as astrologers are forever telling us, astrology repeats. And repeats. And repeats. Cycles within cycles within cycles. So it’s possible, and highly encouraged, to look back to the last time or times a particular pattern occurred.

So to understand the depth of this Solar Eclipse, I turned to Moonrabbit, a beautiful astrologer in St Paul Minnesota. I first met Moonrabbit in an event with Emma Kupu Mitchell. Emma studied how to do death charts from Mooonrabbit, who has written books about death charts.

Sidenote: Emma did a death chart for my ex-husband. I didn’t know what to expect. But Emma carefully showed me how to see the constellation of connections not just between my ex-husband and me but with our son as well. It was so, so comforting. Emma explained that death charts tell the story of life and death connections over lifetimes.

And a big piece of the story is eclipses. Deaths and eclipses are tightly intertwined.

So when Emma interviewed Moonrabbit, I paid close attention. I was deeply moved by Moonrabbit’s wisdom, but also by her goodness. This is a woman who stopped doing readings, gave up her income, so she could deliver food to people in St Paul who were afraid to leave their homes while ICE was terrorizing their neighborhoods.

I’ve followed Moonrabbit ever since.

Today, Saturday, August 8, Moonrabbit wrote about the deeper meaning of Wednesday’s Solar Eclipse. She said that this Solar Eclipse in Leo “echoes a pattern of similar eclipses from both August 2018 and August 2008. If you remember the issues you were facing during those years, you might perceive something similar or parallel going on now.”

I love how astrologers invite us to look back at recurring cycles.

So I got out my journal and asked myself what was happening in August 2018.

A lot. 2018 was a pivotal year for me. It started with Emma telling me in an Essence Numerology consultation for my birthday that “by the time your next birthday comes, "you will be a different person.” Scared me at the time, but it accurately described all that was about to unfold.

Only now, do I see how August 2018 is directly connected to August 2026.

So what happened in 2018?

Well, it began with a startling experience of asking Archangel Michael to show me the first person who ever silenced me and instantly a man, or the feeling of the presence of a man, popped into my living room. And I knew, I knew, I was in the presence of a husband, a beloved husband 3,000 years ago who was roped into the Yahwist gangs who were obeying their god's command to destroy the sacred groves where we had gathered for generations to honor the Goddess life force in the Earth and in all life. That husband broke my heart.

I asked Archangel Michael to pray Ho`oponopono with me to free this once-loved man from the cords of hate and violence that bound him.

That night, he showed up as I was falling asleep whispering, “I don’t deserve this.” So the next morning, Michael and I prayed to cut those sticky white cords again. It was hard sweaty prayer work.

When we finished, I picked up my journal to do some deep soul writing, and an intense prayer burst onto the page, beginning with:

If I forgave you
for silencing my voice
ending the music
and closing the dance

If I forgave you
for shutting the temple
dispersing the women
and trampling the fire

If I forgave you
for bowing to power
crushing our love
and selling your soul—
was it worth it my dear, was it worth it

The prayer continued, ending with a question:

If I forgave you
Who would you be?
Who would you be?
Who would I be?

I found the prayer deeply moving but I didn’t know it was ringing a bell ushering in a whole new life.

Twenty days later, prayer artist arrived in the night and my life changed, just like Emma said it would. I stopped teaching my classes and began to offer prayer intensives, the first one that year was on Ho`oponopono with Kau Lahela.

The second intensive opened that summer and everyone who came seemed to need to tell their stories about sexual abuse. I became so enraged about what men have done to women that I began to get lost.

That August, right around the time of the Eclipse, I was awakened with a statement I’ve been pondering ever since.

My sacred feminine voice said, “It wasn’t a power structure, it was a reverence structure.”

I knew what I was being taught: patriarchy is all about power, but for tens of thousands of years before patriarchy, we lived in reverence. When children are raised to have reverence for themselves, for life, for women, and for Mother Earth, power and domination can't find a foothold.

One night in August, I think it was the 19th, I was awakened at 4am hearing a familiar male voice say:

If I honored you
If I saw who you are, who you really are
My sister, my mother, my daughter, my guide
My Goddess, my teacher, my lover, my bride

And goes on to ask:

If I worshipped you…
If I protected you…

And then, taking me by surprise, he said:

If I took off all my weapons…

I held my breath as he slowly took off all the modern symbols of male power, ownership, and domination, announcing before each removal, “I am not innocent.”

The prayer ended with him saying:

If I offered myself in service to love
If I offered myself as protection for love

Who would I be?
Who would I be?
Who would we be?

Whew. What a night. I carefully typed it up the next day, but until this moment didn’t really know what it all meant or what to do with it.

But I do now!

Thanks to Moonrabbit encouraging me to look back to August 2018, I now see that everything for the deep work Cathy and Tony and I are doing in Praying in the Dark was seeded August 2018. I’ve been carrying those seeds and watering them carefully with all the prayer and witch intensives I’ve created these past eight years.

And now, I understand why Cathy and I suddenly realized two weeks ago that Praying in the Dark is not one intensive; it’s a series.

A series that is going to dig incrementally deeper and deeper into the taproots of patriarchy, not as a psychological or historical study, but as a walk deep into the mystic to remember how to live in reverence.

Monica Gagliano, author of Thus Spoke the Plant described our task perfectly:

“We are here to remember the future.”

Under the waves of beauty and power emanating from the Solar Eclipse this week, Cathy and I will listen carefully to what wants to be created. In perfect synchronicity, the Sun and Moon are also conjunct the South Node which symbolizes the completion of things from the past that are resurfacing to be resolved.

Resurfacing to be resolved. What a perfect description of the sacred intent of our Praying in the Dark series.

We know a few things.

• The second intensive in the Praying in the Dark series is all about the true masculine.
• Not the predatory, bellicose, power-obsessed masculine preening across the global stage right now, trying to make us believe he is invincible.
• Not the monsters who work hard to make sure no one feels safe.
• We will probe beyond that caricature to touch the original masculine, the one my long-ago husband revealed when he took off his weapons.
• The one the joyful Minotaur dancing across the Paleolithic caves invites us to remember.
• The one suffering in silence at this very moment inside our wounded men and boys.
• The one the wild and wise maidens, mothers, and crones cannot wait to meet.

Moonrabbit reminds us that eclipses correspond to major shifts and disruptions in the collective, relate to new beginnings, and illuminate new paths that lead to the fulfillment of our soul’s destiny.

In other words, this is the perfect season to design the next step in Praying in the Dark.

Next Sunday, we hope to have the first Praying in the Dark: How Visionaries Pray in a Time of Collapse ready for you OnDemand. It will be the pre-requisite for the second Praying in the Dark intensive coming September 15-Oct 6. You’ll want to watch the first intensive to get a taste for our four guides: Hecate, Minotaur, Corn, and the Bees. And to learn how to pray the first ever rosary untethered from any religion or theology. It’s a revelation.

Until then, pay attention to the Solar Eclipse on Wednesday and look back in your soul writing to August 2018, and even further to August 2008, and uncover the jewels waiting for you there.

What are those moments telling you about this moment?

Life is fragile, handle with reverence

Janet

PS: Thank you for all your powerful responses to last Sunday's Notes from the Field about how the five crimes have poisoned men. All my newsletters are on my website under blog.

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